What If?

What if it's not ready?
What if this is my last chance
to have my favorite agent
give it more than just a glance?

What if, just like last go,
I'm rejected forty ways?
Am I forever doomed to
tired prose and dead cliches?

What if something's wrong with me,
and I'm not meant to write more
than the newsletters and blogs
I've been doing since '04?

If that's the case I'm sure
to be more than just depressed.
I'll have wasted seven years
on a hobby no one gets.

Writing asks more time than
I can possibly commit.
I probably should quit, but then...
what if this is it?

Only one way to find out.

6 comments:

Matthew Delman said...

From everything I've seen, getting published is 20% craft and 80% sheer bloody-minded insistence on learning and writing and learning and writing.

You'll get it, sir. No worries.

Natalie Whipple said...

Good luck, Adam! You'll be fine:) And don't you ever say the last seven years was a waste again. That's ridiculous. Don't make me dispatch the ninjas.

Matt Heppe said...

"Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead!"

Best of luck!

Myrna Foster said...

you can do it you can do it you can do it

Did you win your bet?

Adam Heine said...

You guys are so awesome. Thank you!

MattD: So you're saying I'm bloody-minded. That's probably true.

Natalie: I'm sorry, ma'am. It'll never happen again. Please hold back the ninjas. Thank you.

Myrna: I did indeed. I sent my wife an e-mail last night that said, "You owe me a steak. Just saying."

Myrna Foster said...

Enjoy that steak--you've earned it! And good luck with your querying.